Wierd oracle thing going on?

I don't know how to explain it. I say something that I have little understanding of and later find that it comes my way when I have forgotten about it. Like I make a promise to myself, then find some holy history under the quotes of my words someday that have been written centuries ago. It is really bugging me out, like, I don't see it coming, but say it is. I made a little thing I'd prefer to call an experiment, whenever I felt that urge, I said it. I asked to gather twelve warriors of light. Then later on, these Jesus things bugged me and I looked into it, then it hit me, the twelve apostles. I have never heard of them until years after I said those words, so what makes them important all of the sudden? Once as a kid, I collapsed and wished to be a strong puppet of god or something, because I was always long with making decisions. Weird... Explanation?